"I'm Back"

Today I still felt a bit sick, just need more rest and medication,

anyways I feel that I can let go of "him"..

Why should I suffer with sadness for him,

what value is there??? Isn't it?? =D

I'm being myself again....

actually no....

not myself, I want to changed...=)

for the better...

Now I want to make a list that the things I wanted,

and things I wanted to changed (myself)

I'll be happy, happier, Happiest teenage girl that I wanted to be!!!

I will post up the list later for now ;)

Lastly...

I want to say....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHOW LUO

STAGE OF SHOW ^v^

Hey Guys ain't over...I will post my list later

I promise. -^0^-
From: emikreovik.Aeolin XOXO

Today I went to Carrecfour,
wanted to buy E-pop magazines.
the bookshop was all sold out...dissapointed T^T

I went shopping with mummy,
during that time I think of "him" again...
I still remember the 1st time I saw him wearing normal outfit,
usually he wear formal, that is the 1st time I seen him wearing a normal outfit.

I never forget that day,
is still in my mind,
the memories of him is still with me.
I'll never forget..

COUNTDOWN THE DAYS YOU LEFT:

7 Days

♥TO HIM♥

even though you got a girlfriend,

no matter what I hope we stil can be friends forever,

I will love you until I fall for someone in the future....

Can't get you out of my head

The moment I wake up

the first thing I ever think about is you

Why??

Why I can't get over you, after so long???

I want you out of my life, but I can't do it,

you left without saying goodbye, do you know how hurt it was for me??

I thought the moment you left I can forget you easily.

I was wrong I can't forget you at all,

think of you every hour, every minute, every second.

I miss you, I even SMS you, but you didn't reply me at all

Why you want to hurt me so badly???

My heart hurts, feel like dying,

WHY???

I've done so much to stop thinking about you.

Spending time with my friends,

watching movies, listening to music,

during that time my mind was kept busy,

didn't think of you, I thought I was done with you.

As time pass, I'll think of you again,

you're in my mind,

the same smile, same laugh, the same you.

COUNTDOWN THE DAYS YOU LEFT:

6 Days

I love you, always....

Even though you hate me

You're the one I loved forever....

~emikreovik.Aeolin

Sick and tired

Today I went to see doctor again,

my condition is worst then my brother that's what the doctor told me,

I really need to get better, don't want my sisters worried me.

Countdown the days you left,

4 days

This is my Kawaii and pretty sister, Happy 16th birthday!!

Be pretty, be smart and work hard!! ^^^^

Sharon's Birthday

Today,
Michelle, Christin, Wendy, Kevin, Evon and me celebrate Sharon's 16 birthday
at Mc'Donald.

On our way there, something weird about Kevin,
I mean he seems to change, diffrent Kevin that I've known.
don't no is it me thinking to much or he is the one really change. =="

We went there about 2.00pm
Evon treat me Mc.Chicken was glad that I don't have to use my money, [naughty me]
all of us ate together and chat.

Opening presents and all,
Hope Sharon will stay happy always!!

Very Tired..

Today I went to school and finish my moral folio,
man..tired like hell.

Have bunch a homework is incomplete...T^T
School life's great one thing is "HOMEWORK".

Me and my loveable sisters and TB talked about Sharon's Birthday,
that is this Friday, we planed to celebrate earlier on Thursday,
Cause Friday I had class.

I gonna offline for 2 weeks,
reason is simple I need to do my homework and do some studies for my exams.
But I will online for awhile during my free time to check my mails and bloggers comments.

SEE ALL READERS AND FRIENDS 2 WEEKS LATER
BYE FOR NOW

"EMO" Hair Salon

Today my brother going to have his hair cut,
we go to a new salon call "EMO",
what a salon name, we went in and there are 3 customers waiting.

"The "EMO" Hair studio"

[Left]That's the hairstylist gonna cut my brother's hair

"Before and After hair cut"

To My brother: " I know you have a nice hairstyle now, but please don't be so perasan ok??^^"

My brother and me

Look like couple right??? Haha, kidding!! ^^

So that's all for today ^^!!

Hope you guys Enjoyed the pictures I've upload.

Comment it whenever you guys free ok?? ^^ Thank you

By: emikreovik.Aeolin

Boring

Today stayed home the whole day,
surfing the Internet,
watch video, listen to music and etc..

Tired and exhausted.
Miss my friends a lot, want to hang out with them.

My lovely, pretty, cute and handsome sisters and TB,
I really miss all of you guys!!!
Love you muacks!!

Gotong Royong increase my friendship rate

Today my school having Gotong Royong,
man, so "many" people come!!! [NOT!]
assembly starts,
boring, 10% of fun.

We had singing competition and story telling,
about the singing stratch that, story telling for me, Sharon, Michelle and Christin enjoyed the best.
Haha~~ the story drama characters got a doll, a clown and a bear.
LOL really funny. Especially the clown..

9pm we begin to cleaned our classroom,
Sharon, michelle & Christin that includes me of course.
We cleaned the whole class room about 1 hour and we begin chatting.
also played together and talk, sing and laugh a lot.
BEST MAN~~~

Taekwondo lesson~
Mr.Lee mood is back,
the last lesson was Whooo~~ Scary
this time have fun and exercise a lot.
During half way of the training, my stomach is "upset",
painful. But I didn't let Mr.Lee down, just keep on training.

Lost weight already~~
Hahahaha~ Oh yes!!!
3 kg!!!!

Is it a good or bad day??

Today in class,
Mic folds 360 swans to Christin,
Aww, so sweet~~
Christin was full of happiness~
Hope she'll stay happy...


Wendy visit us around 11 something,
she came a bit early because we're studying Economics.
After that there's spot check,
OMG~
I almost wanted to bring my handphone,
luckily Didn't.


Prefects confiscated Sharon's Comic book, and Wendy's sunblock.
Michelle's bracelet also rampas.
Sharon was so worried,
she beg the discipline teacher to give her back as soon as possible,
because she wanted to return it to the comic bookshop.
The teacher reply that the book can be return by end of the year,
we found a way, that is Pn. Adelina, our English teacher.
She's also one of the disciplinary teacher, Sharon and I run to find her and she agreed to help.


At 5pm mom send me to tuition,
I have no mood to study, I skip account and when to desa setapak
to have my hair cut~~
Reach there around 30 minutes.
Tired, but I'm happy I did some exercise.
Finish my hair cut, off to tuition
takes me 15 minutes by running.
total=45 minutes

Ate Curry Mee again, yummy. Love my mom

360~~

Please do well~~

Not Happy

BEFORE

AFTER

Not Happy~

Everyone knows about it,

my secret is out ><

In school

the rumous, the complains and everything above

I want to make it right~~

All girls are prettier,
more fashionable, more stylish, better than me.

I have no taste,

low standard~~

I'm Miss antisosial

Please forgive me,

for not talking to you~~
because there's someone more close to you~

Fine day..I think

I went shopping with Mum and Dad today,
about 4 pm whole family go Time Square.
I went to Time Square to buy Bag Brand name is Number Nine [don't no what brand is that]
cost daddy 39.90
I love it..

Then we go to Pudu Plaza,
go drink coffee,
then got gastric for awhile don't no why.
Buy hair stuff and jeans.

Today don't know why I miss someone all of a sudden,
unhappy cause daddy scolded all of us didn't care about him much,
sorry daddy. T^T

Happy but also a bad day

Today I woke up at 7am,
don't no why can wake up so early,
I get ready and went to MC'Donald to meet Kevin, Michelle & Christin and Wendy.

Mom fetch me to LRT station,

and I took a cab to MC'Donald.

Cost fee about 5 dollars,

Half way to there, Kevin already waiting for me outside ^@^,

that time didn't smile cause been stress by Christin chui wo.

But lucky Kevin manage to clam me down,
my smile came back, ^^
we to one shopping centre first before we held to Jaya Jusco.

At that time I'm having gastric,

maybe I didn't eat much..

Kevin quickly went to buy 100plus & a hot Milo for me.

Really happy he helped me alot. Really Happy^@^

Lunch time we went to Kepong KFC,
Christin and Michelle went to buy cinema tickets,
while Wendy, Kevin and I ate first.
Oh man, I ate a lot today, =="
worried will get fat!!!

Finish eating, Kevin and I went off first,

cause I need to meet my aunt to see a doctor,

so many laughter's during that time.

Found my aunt and went to the clinic,
doctor told me that I can't ate too spicy food and don't drink too much ice water.
have to obey and take doctor's advice.
around 2:30pm I went to Sungai Wang alone,
at that time "He" sms me saying that his alone at Time Square and there is no one accompanied asked me to go Time Square.

Reach to Time Square and about 30 minutes later,

meet "him" at Borders bookstore.

Wow I don't know how long I waited until "he" finally appear,

then "he" was finding someone,

I asked who," he" said that he saw his friend and he is following us.

I was like so angry, then I clam myself,
nevermind that.
When to 6 floor, Snookers Club
real boring but I already promise to accompany "him",
so I just sat around the corner and watch "he" and his friend play.

After awhile, someone appear

one of Suria Center's stuff, [it was T]

OMG!! I really mad at that time, feel like being used for nothing,

and "he's" face like he done nothing wrong.

I guess that is "his" girlfriend, I don't want to know either

I stuck there for 2 hours without doing nothing,

Stuck there my feet just won't move,

Later on I ran out and "he" sms me

"Eh, where u going? Din notice u leave already leh"

I was sad at that time didn't reply "him",

2o minutes pass I send him a sad emotion to "him"

Do you know what "he" reply me?

"Anything?"

Agrh....I'm so piss.

At 6pm I wanted to leave,so I sms "him",

"Go first, Since you're not alone got someone accompany you."

"His" reply was

"You don't want to play bowling meh?"

"Don't want le, you play lah."

"You suka la" [What??]

Why I so dumb to believe "he" needed me,

wanted to accompany "him",

I guess I was wrong....

Reach home I think of someone smile,
then my mood was fine...^@^

Wish I can be like this forever

"^v^ Thinking of happy things that made me smile. ^o^"

Today was a fresh start of my new beginning,

in school Christin and Monique was waiting for me as usual.
Ask me about Saturday's plan, when I heard of that suddenly I smile.

We plan to go Kepong's Jaya Jusco along with Wendy and Kevin~

~I can't wait >0<~
Class was boring specially Perdagangan, wanted to sleep.
Something was bothering Sharon lately quite worried about her,
don't no what happened, hope she will be happy the way she was.

In tuition,
Psy told me about yesterday what is "his" reaction receiving my present,
it seems to Psy that "T" is his girlfriend, she saw "him" and T together at 7-eleven,
When Psy pass the present that I want to gave him
"He" just reply a word. "Oh".
I was like "What the hell??"
Didn't even say Thank you.

Psy asked me am I sad?
actually I was mad for awhile but at the same time
I was thinking of a person that makes me smile a lot, I didn't even care about "him". I just want to be happy, I want to love someone else, start over and smile whenever I can.

New Begining for me`~

I want to start over..
I don't want to live a world full of sadness,
I want to be happy.

Gave "him" a birthday present early,
I decided this is the first and the last time I'm going to give him,
Slowly my heartache heal quickly,
someone give me a strength to hold on,
to be happy with.

I don't want to be uphappy,
I don't want to cry because of him,
this is the last time,
and I don't want to get hurt because of him.

I want to be happy,
but can I be happy that's the problem??
Can I trust someone again?
can I fall for someone again?
Will I get more hurt than last time?
Who knows....^__^

Tired..confused..angry

Today I'm exhausted, I slept for 5 hours,
went to school feel like wanted to faint.
At 9:00pm Christin & Michelle had an argument,
not quite sure what happened.

When science class was over,
I had a gastric again,
thought was not that serious didn't care about it.

I ate a little during lunch time,
and I off to meet Psy at Suria tuition,
We sat a cab to Statice Salon Hair Studio.

I wanted to cut my hair cost about 20 dollars,
after that we went to S + J at Jaya Jusco after I had what I wanted to buy,
we went window shopping, my gastric pain starts again.
I didn't let Psy know, cause I don't want her to be worried,
I just endure the pain and act that's nothings wrong.

At 4:40pm we sat a cab to tuition,
and I felt asleep during class for about 3 times.
Embarrassing...
Later the class was over, I think I've found out who is "his" Girlfriend.
but I not quite sure whether I'm correct.

Should I keep on guessing?
before I think about this my emotions are ok,
but after wanted to figure who is she
I'll get a bit angry and less happy for no reason.
How long this will take?
I'm ready to forget, but why I still want to hurt myself more and more??

Happy or Unhappy?

Today I went to school as usually,
Christin & Monique so excited to see me,
asked me what happened yesterday between Kevin and me.
OMG, still don't no how to answer them. =="

I supposed to me happy in the morning,
but until the head academic teacher wanted to see our whole class students,
even class 4 Prinsip 1 is there.

She really got nothing to do,
read our Mid-term exam's result,
first was 4 Prinsip 1,, their result was up on the screen too.
Ain and her crazy Friends complained and asked the teacher to Zoom their result clearly.
I was so mad till I scolded them, cause if teacher do what Ain said,
Our result will Zoom clearly as well.

Really makes me sick,
hate people like them!!
After 12.30pm Sharon notice her history text book was not returned by
One of MPV Class students who came to borrowed.
She burst up in tears,
Christin and I quickly find her text book,
I ran to the form one block and looked for it.

Christin try to call me to stop running,
but in my head was thinking of finding Sharon's book as quickly as I can.
Luckily I helped to find out who borrowed the book and returned to Sharon,
Later I feel a little dizzy, I guess I didn't ate much during recess,
I just ate one bread and I run 3 times to help Sharon.

OMG, I really can't even focus properly,
after my mom came to fetched me after school,
I ate my lunch, but after I ate I feel like wanted to vomit,
don't feel so good.

At 4pm,
Went to tuition,
didn't see "him", he is at the back of the office,
Teacher Jaya was late,
and the notes was not ready to pass to us.

Around 4:30pm
"he" came in the class and asked Jaya something,
I was indeed shocked when I see "him" come in.
I didn't look at him in the eye, he didn't either .
sadly dissapointed, but I kept my smile without letting my friends know that I'm down,
I keep laughing and smiling, after they leave, the smile faded.
What should I do now???!!!...

Being Happy, Hope it last forever

"Hope my smile will stay happy!!"

Today in school Christin, Sharon and Monique was discussing about something. They talk about last Saturday where Sharon, Wendy and Kevin went to pavilion together.Talk about how Kevin cares about me the stuff like that. I was like OMG, can't even answer what question they asked. Sorry guys!!~ ==''

In class there are lots of rumours about me and Kevin. All my classmates keep asking me about Kevin is he my boyfriend or something. The question they asked me, again I don't even know how to answer. Even Michelle asked me what happened during Friday at Mc'Donald between me and him.

[Sorry Kevin let everyone talked about us like that, hope you're not angry]

I meet Kevin after school at the same place where he waits for me 7-eleven.We talked a lots of things, made me happy I didn't feel any sadness within me ,It makes me feel that maybe I can let "him" [one I like before] go easily. I just check that I'm not chosen for NS [National Service]. YAHOO~~~

Thanks Kevin for everything!!

Official heartbreaker

" When I'm alone, I'll think back the memories we had together"

Today I woke up at 10:30AM, when I looked at the mirror

I saw a girl who cried last night, till her eyes turn to panda eyes.

makes me really pain to let go.

I chat with him last night, wanted to ask him whether we can celebrate his birthday,

he's answer made me disappointed and heartbroken,

If we celebrate his girlfriend would come along,

what makes me? A lonely girl who walk with couples
So embarrassing if others looked at me

Why can't he think of the consequence that how would I feel about being uncomfortable

Are all guys like that? I always ask myself
When I'm alone I looked up the sky and said:

" Where would you be? Must be with your girlfriend dating happily right?"

And sometimes I will think of the old days when we talked about lots of things.

Sorry I didn't it coming,

Sorry I being selfish for not believing that you've a girlfriend

Sorry for myself for being an idiot.

Went to see dad in the hospital,

after that I went to Jaya Jusco with my mom and my brother,

seen a lot of couples again,

forget about it

There's so many Michael Jackson's music album in Speedy,

even there are lots of people

crowded in front of the TV Screen to watch his old concert performance.

" Michael do you see how much we care? Hope you're in heaven being happy."

If I Became A Memory (Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi)

It time for me to let go, Even though is hard

I have to try, let me just remember him as a memory.

Is no use for crying over, is just a Remembrance of Life

-AeoLin*eMiKreoVik-

TANK TRANSATION

Tired....
Striving hard to stay awake, according to custom
and according to custom thinking of you
I'm so afraid to be at ease and sleep
that in my dreams my heartbeat wont listen
and will just stop..

Listening...to my breath breaking like waves
the more beautiful it is, the more uneasy I become
what can I still cherish
If even my own pulse is too difficult to control?

If I become a memory
and if I withdraw from this life
you remain startled and weeping
my ice cold body unable to embrace you
and you think that I let you, who I deeply love
travel lonesomely through the sea of people
I will hate myself for being so heartless

If I become a memory and in the end wasn't that lucky
no chance to get white hair or lead you hobbling
or watch the glow of sunset
one day after a long time
you will recover from your grief
if someone can heal you, let him be with you
I wont blame you...

Happiness...when will it end?
which moment is the last moment
I want to tightly hold you
to know that in my life you are the one I'm most unwilling to part with

If I become a memory and I withdraw from this life
you remain startled and weeping
my ice cold body unable to embrace you
and you think that I let you, who I deeply love
travel lonesomely through the sea of people
I will hate myself for being so heartless

If I become a memory
and in the end,wasn't that lucky
no chance to get white hair or lead you hobbling
or watch the glow of sunset
one day after a long time you will recover from your grief
if someone can heal you let him be with you

If I become a memory
I'm most afraid of being too disappointing
stubbornly hanging in the air
to occupy your heart
every inch of it having you, the one who still loves me
painfully bear the loss, this isn't fair
please do your best to forget me...

Imagination day

Today I went to Pavilion with Sharon, Wendy and Kevin.
I reach to Pavilion around 2:30pm, cause I need to visit my dad in the hospital.
Went to KFC to meet Sharon and Wendy, since I'm late I decided to belanja them watch a movie together.

During the movie in the Cinema room, I seen a lot of Couples everywhere, some Kissing, hugging holding hands. It makes me think of "him" more, I can't get him out of my head. I keep clam and think of happy thoughts and it makes me feel better.

After the movie, we met Kevin outside the cinema.
I really hope his not angry for waiting for us, cause yesterday I already seen his angry face. Wendy and Sharon went to wash room, and Kevin keeps worrying about me. Actually I was thinking about last night what Psy told me about the "bad news".

He is going to leave soon for further studies, for me it was too soon for him to leave. I cried for one hour with Psy beside me, I feel much better after crying. At night at 11:30pm I begin to sms with him till almost 1pm. I didn't sleep much, but doing this to communicate with him I think is alright.

But I think again why should I get sad when I'm with my friends, I think straight and forget about it and keep my mind busy talking to Sharon, Wendy and Kevin. It's fun to be with them, special Kevin the love expert [LOL! Thanks a lot].

At 7pm its time for me to go back, I was waiting for my bus to come at Wangsa Maju LRT station. I met Wayne, it seems that he went to KLCC on his own. We sat the bus together and went home.

Today really imagine he is right by my side, but it's not going to happen,
just let go and move on...

Good and bad day

Today I went to Mc'Donald with Kevin,

there are lots of people,

His friends are there too.

When I was there, feel a little uncomfortable, brings back the bad memories of form 2 case.

Lucky I keep calm, and think of Happy things.

I didn't get to talk much with Kevin

cause he's busy chatting with his friends, after that he had to run to somewhere.

Later, he came back, he's sweating like crazy and see like he is going to pengsan. Few minutes later, his friend call him again, and his gets mad. Didn't see him like this before, usually see him very happy.

Being with my friends and all keeps my mind busy, If I'm alone and nobody speaks to me, I will think of "him"

I thought I can handle by meeting him in tuition,

In the beginning was fine, but after class I went to see science teacher at the same time his beside him. I did chat with him after finish talking to Sue Li and teacher, I feel fine. But later on, is just between him and me. We talk about tuition stuff, after that there's nothing to talk about. It makes me more lonely and feel that I did something wrong.

Since he has a girlfriend he really change a lot, avoid to talk to me.

Really makes me sad, I wonder how I'm going to recover. The pain just won't disappear, I really want to go back to the past as we are friends and all. But he just doesn't understands me. T^T

Heart broken...

It's over
I can't believe is over, is been 2 months
suddenly you have a girlfriend. T^T

13th may 2009, 7.30pm
The first sms I send to you
the first time I worried about you, and chat with you
during sms I really wish we could chat more till non-stop.

But I always the one sms you,
you didn't sms me before, I'm the one who always make a move
you break my heart, I really can't make myself to forget about you

What should I do??
Why didn't you tell me earlier
if you tell me earlier, I wouldn't have fallen for you.
I really can't concentrate anything
I cried so many times because of you,
do you know how many things I've done for you??

No matter what happens I'll always love you
till one day I'll forget everything about you
In the mean time, I'll avoid meeting you and chat with you
Goodbye forever?!