Almost lose to myself

I almost lose to myself

all the negative thoughts are around me

last week monday till friday

I did not sleep well, I'm having insomia.

I tried went to bed early, but I end up turning right and left

What's the reason?

SIMPLE. Him.

I shouldn't have view his profile

A simple "I love you" these 3 words to his girl,
I barely had a heartache

This words keep on my mind occupied

and made me can't sleep till 3am.

I suffering from not getting enough sleep for 5 days.

I keep blaming myself

why am I so stupid? why I keep thinking of him for what reason?
5 days in row

I've been thinking of all my friends and aunt's advice

I keep lecturing myself everynight.

But think again. I can't hide away from the truth

God open up my eyes tell me to forget him,

FULLY let him go.

One day my aunt called and bring me to a course

It's called "Visiber"

she asked me to overnight at her house too.

"It's like a dream come true!! haha"

I keep on complaining that I wanted to go to my aunt's house for visit

finally!! I got that chance. ^^

Aunt's house is like a spa for relaxation

It's stress-free

It's peaceful-free

It's release my tension too. For me I mean xD

 I enjoyed the breeze there.

 RELAXING

That night itself, I thought I gonna had insomia again.

but it didn't happend at all. I sleep quite early 12am xD

At else 12am not 3am

Next morning I got up early around 6:45am

WOW! I can wake up early! @v@

Miracle! LOL

I attented the course for 4 hours

it's interesting. Because "Visible" help me understand

who I am, what kind of people I am.

I want to change myself! I need confident! I need to move on!

I've got that chance thanks to "Visible" and especially my aunt.

Anyways I had fun, what a fun experience!

And I can sleep soundly now

Hope it won't happened again.

INSOMIA PLEASE DON'T BOTHER ME AGAIN.

As for MY LOVELY AUNT

Dear Aunt, thanks for supporting me through out everything

I am happy that you're my aunt that I can count on.

Please do take care of your health and drink plenty of water.

I ♥ you.

Emiko