Feelings towards you

It's been a tough month.

How's everyone? I hope you guys out there are well.

This few days, I made lots of mistakes. Mistakes that are stupid enough to get myself in trouble.

When people say, I had forgotten...

When people say, I'm over it

When people say, I'm not gonna think about it

When people say, nope his just a jerk what should I care?

All lies.

I do care. I don't wanna lie anymore.

I still care for him. But it doesn't mean I gonna do something about it.

Cause it doesn't change anything. He wants freedom, I gave it to him.

I've been adding people that matual friends with my friends

Is actually fun to add. And get to know people randomly.

It's hard to find true friends in the internet,

 but I just wanna seal up my loneliness and sadness.

Now I realize I should keep a low profile,

because they're assholes. I mean real assholes.

You see I gone out to had my phone fix few days ago and there is this guy from facebook

wanted to meet me, is a coincidence that we're at the same location

I regreted. Why I met this guy in the first place.

Simply put it, I thought I can meet a guy like HIM (EX).

But I was wrong, how stupid I am.

He is totally different the way I expected.
He is rude and immature.
Simply do things that makes me wanna punch him
The worst guy I ever met. This is not my cup of tea!

I can comfirm that I can't truly love a person now.

because I'm not over my ex yet.

The person that i thought he was, I miss him. The old him.

But life goes on, maybe someone can make me even happier than he can?

I just need someone to talk to. Just to occupied my negative thoughts

I can't stay silent and doing nothing. I have to voice out. Talk to someone litterary.

The only person I can voice out and express my feelings to is my aunt.

But I can't count on her all the time, she also have work to.

I don't wanna make her worried.

I tried to make friends. Friends that is worth to make.

Hope God give me a chance with a little bit of help and luck =)

My mood right now with this song

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes

It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced

What you doin'to me

You're taking her where we used to go

Now if you're tryin' to break my heart

It's working cause you know that

That should be me holding your hand

That should be me making you laugh

That should be me this is so sad

That should be me feeling your kiss

That should be me

To him that I thought he was from me

That should be me in your arms, ILY..IMY  =(

 



 

Misses you,

Emiko