Feelings towards you

It's been a tough month.

How's everyone? I hope you guys out there are well.

This few days, I made lots of mistakes. Mistakes that are stupid enough to get myself in trouble.

When people say, I had forgotten...

When people say, I'm over it

When people say, I'm not gonna think about it

When people say, nope his just a jerk what should I care?

All lies.

I do care. I don't wanna lie anymore.

I still care for him. But it doesn't mean I gonna do something about it.

Cause it doesn't change anything. He wants freedom, I gave it to him.

I've been adding people that matual friends with my friends

Is actually fun to add. And get to know people randomly.

It's hard to find true friends in the internet,

 but I just wanna seal up my loneliness and sadness.

Now I realize I should keep a low profile,

because they're assholes. I mean real assholes.

You see I gone out to had my phone fix few days ago and there is this guy from facebook

wanted to meet me, is a coincidence that we're at the same location

I regreted. Why I met this guy in the first place.

Simply put it, I thought I can meet a guy like HIM (EX).

But I was wrong, how stupid I am.

He is totally different the way I expected.
He is rude and immature.
Simply do things that makes me wanna punch him
The worst guy I ever met. This is not my cup of tea!

I can comfirm that I can't truly love a person now.

because I'm not over my ex yet.

The person that i thought he was, I miss him. The old him.

But life goes on, maybe someone can make me even happier than he can?

I just need someone to talk to. Just to occupied my negative thoughts

I can't stay silent and doing nothing. I have to voice out. Talk to someone litterary.

The only person I can voice out and express my feelings to is my aunt.

But I can't count on her all the time, she also have work to.

I don't wanna make her worried.

I tried to make friends. Friends that is worth to make.

Hope God give me a chance with a little bit of help and luck =)

My mood right now with this song

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes

It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced

What you doin'to me

You're taking her where we used to go

Now if you're tryin' to break my heart

It's working cause you know that

That should be me holding your hand

That should be me making you laugh

That should be me this is so sad

That should be me feeling your kiss

That should be me

To him that I thought he was from me

That should be me in your arms, ILY..IMY  =(

 



 

Misses you,

Emiko

Will it be my turn?



Everyone had a love one;

or a special someone in their hearts..

sometimes I even asked myself, will I be love like the way in books of fairy tales?

or maybe is just thinking too much again?

When you meet a special person, you will feel something that you didn't felt before

of course, I had that feeling once. Only once.

But it's a long time ago.

When he/she hurts you, you will remember the pain..

When he/she lies to you, you will feel insecure and you'll think too much

When he/she done something that makes you happy, you will remember it forever.

As for me,

I got to be honest, my hate for him is growing stronger.

I don't blame him, It's just my own problem

I'm down with love games. I'm done.

After all who can ever understand how I feel.

No one but myself.

Love there is a Lie

Love there is Pain

Love there is hurt one and other

The true meaning of love is learn to love and be loved in return."

I'm tired of games,

I'm tired of thinking love right now.

After all I'm just a silly girl with bunch of imaginations.

Pretty? I wish.

Beautiful? On the inside I think I am

To my Prince Charming,

Who ever you are, I hope we might meet each other.

Get to know each other and help one another.

See you, One day..

A Song for you: I just haven't met you yet

You'll come out of nowhere and into my life 

And I know that we can be so amazing

And, baby, your love is gonna change me

And now I can see every possibility

 

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out

You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out

And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet...

 

Yours Truthly,

Emiko