Almost lose to myself

I almost lose to myself

all the negative thoughts are around me

last week monday till friday

I did not sleep well, I'm having insomia.

I tried went to bed early, but I end up turning right and left

What's the reason?

SIMPLE. Him.

I shouldn't have view his profile

A simple "I love you" these 3 words to his girl,
I barely had a heartache

This words keep on my mind occupied

and made me can't sleep till 3am.

I suffering from not getting enough sleep for 5 days.

I keep blaming myself

why am I so stupid? why I keep thinking of him for what reason?
5 days in row

I've been thinking of all my friends and aunt's advice

I keep lecturing myself everynight.

But think again. I can't hide away from the truth

God open up my eyes tell me to forget him,

FULLY let him go.

One day my aunt called and bring me to a course

It's called "Visiber"

she asked me to overnight at her house too.

"It's like a dream come true!! haha"

I keep on complaining that I wanted to go to my aunt's house for visit

finally!! I got that chance. ^^

Aunt's house is like a spa for relaxation

It's stress-free

It's peaceful-free

It's release my tension too. For me I mean xD

 I enjoyed the breeze there.

 RELAXING

That night itself, I thought I gonna had insomia again.

but it didn't happend at all. I sleep quite early 12am xD

At else 12am not 3am

Next morning I got up early around 6:45am

WOW! I can wake up early! @v@

Miracle! LOL

I attented the course for 4 hours

it's interesting. Because "Visible" help me understand

who I am, what kind of people I am.

I want to change myself! I need confident! I need to move on!

I've got that chance thanks to "Visible" and especially my aunt.

Anyways I had fun, what a fun experience!

And I can sleep soundly now

Hope it won't happened again.

INSOMIA PLEASE DON'T BOTHER ME AGAIN.

As for MY LOVELY AUNT

Dear Aunt, thanks for supporting me through out everything

I am happy that you're my aunt that I can count on.

Please do take care of your health and drink plenty of water.

I ♥ you.

Emiko

Accept the way I am

I used to think that I'm not pretty.

But when I wore an outfit during my "dates"

I really feel pretty and full of confidents.

I look into the mirror

I smile to myself and said

"No matter how people look at me, how people judge me.

I am still me."

To be honest,

I used to be pretty for somone, try to be pretty for him

Keep updating the lastest outfit and hairdo.

But, now I realize I'm not myself.

I  just trying to be someone else to convinced him to fall for me

How stupid I am.

I neglecte the way I am for someone

In the end, I got nothing.

I don't want to be someone that I'm not

I just want to be me, my own character.

hope I can love myself more this year,

not for anyone but myself.

Yesterday I had a appointment with a friend of mine

Sharon.

 She invited me to pavilion to hangout,

and accompany her to Padini to return her uniform.

*Didn't know she work there*

LOLS, anyway I met 1 or 2 classmates of mine as well.

Ain and Faizah.

Although we don't talk much during school times

But I'm happy to meet them again. Especially Faizah

She worked at Elianto.

She look fabulous almost cannot recognize her.

Too bad she can't spend time with us, cause she needs to work

Sharon and I went for lunch after visited faizah.

and then we went to the toilet. Camwhore time* (^V^)

More picture are at my facebook

fill free to view xD

We went to catch a movie as well

the movie to call just go with it

Before the movie starts we went to Wong Kok for tea

Camwhore again =D

My baobei. Cute leh xD

Not only that I saw someone at Wong Kok as well

This guy

Yama.

Haha. So convenient that I can see him in real person

Don't get me wrong, he don't know who I am

but I know him at facebook.

He really look fair.

Envy his skin xD

LOLs after we finish our tea

Sharon and I went off to catch our movie

Is a very funny movie. Love it

You guys should watch.

Till then next post ♥

♥ Emiko

My Worries, my goodbyes!

"When I close my eyes, all I can see is you

why do I think of you till I can't think anymore?"

Back to the topic,

As you all know I quit my job at Little Wok

I'm tired working there, but still got lot of fun of course

I will miss the workers there, especially my friends

I don't know why,

I keep being nice to someone and they don't appreciate

always my weekest point is being nice to people!!! = =

My close friends warned me about it

I just don't listen, now I know why.

I want to act more mature think wide open

Why is it so difficult?

I try to like someone

Honestly, is more crazy as it seems

I'm tired of "tam" people you know?

the more I adore you, the more you getting out of my nerve

Yes, I adore you,

Yes, I missed you

Yes, I want to see you.

But last night you make me rethink about my pass

Repeating the same mistakes all over again

I'm tired. Why can't you make things more easier for me?

Why can't I met someone who is gentle to me?

Why can't I met someone who really cares for me?

Why can't I met someone special?

All the why's!!!

ARhhhhh.. I hate my mood right now.

I want to meet someone who listen's to my problems

I want to meet someone who really cares for me

I want to meet someone who willing to accept the way I am

For now I want to hangout with my friends

I have one month to enjoy my life

after that I need to concentrate my on studies

Lots love♥

 -Emiko