✲Gentle pain

(+...Before I'm sick and away...+)

Sitting on my bed,

using my sister's laptop

as she came to visit me for a few days in grandma house

because I'll be staying with her till I'm well again

Recently (7.10.2010)

My grandma had been taking care of me

because I'm having gastric pain

My grandma said my face is as pale as a 'ghost'

 with dark circles like a panda, thin like a stick? 0.0...

Maybe I'm sick that's why she call me a stick,

 and I admit my dark circles are puffy as ever, cry to much at night T-T

11.10.2010

Amitted to the hospital, gastric pain had gotten worst.

 Grandma and my sister quickly send me to the hospital,

doctor said I got Gastroenteritis ( chinese know as 肠胃炎)

Low blood pressure (didn't know I got till I check by the doctor.==)

and not gain enough of sleep/rest.

 Need to stayed in the hospital for 4 days for futher pain and check up.

At first I wanted to go home,

but grandma said is best if I stay in the hospital

she's afraid the pain would attack me again.

I have stop collage for a while too

my grandma told me to stop and continue next semester.

Every night in the hospital, I felt scared

with no one around beside me

just a phone & my sister laptop acompany me 

Thanks to her and jie fu

makes me feel safe when I scared

So many things happened at once

Friends betrayed, lied, USED me

(how am I suppose to trust someone again?)

My love had left me for someone else

is been painful and it hurts me

even though I miss him

I still can't stop my tears from falling.

I can't seem to let go as well.

For now,

I just want to yeast my pain

relief my sickness

I don't want my grandma keep on worrying

 my sister and jie fu finding free time taking care of me

I can bear the pain of betrayed and left alone

BUT, I can't make them worried.

I won't be online or sign in FB & msn

as my laptop is at home

and my sister seldom came by to visit me

Grandma don't allow me to surf the net

I just can update plurk status with my phone

Peace to everyone~

Special Thanks to QV jie,

 Chery sms's I'm glad.

=]

Sry let you guys worry. =]