Complicated

 

 This few days I been thinking a lot,

about college, work, and personal problems

I feel like want to collapse somehow

But there is no way to hide.

I'm worried for my result for exams,

as I didn't do much studying -.-

Intro to business and Principles of management

I wonder if I'll pass. Seriously worry.

cause if I fail I don't no what to do. =(

Why I entered college?

Just for a diploma..-.-

Working benefits

Earn money with a lower positions work your way up

Oh dear, why I keep on thinking to quit my studies

and just wanted to take makeup course instate

Full of questions without answers!

 My parents, my relatives, my grandparents...

I just wanna say I'm sorry I did not put more effort in my studies and exams

Emo mode =(

Emiko

Should I be direct?

 

I don't know is it me being annoying or I'm being so sensitive

I really think too much sometimes...

I miss that guy so damn much

his face always appear on my mind

I don't know how to express how much I feel about you,

seriously damn difficult.

I know if I told him I would have to face the consequences later

like avoiding, hiding, not paying any attention to each other.

Can I express my feelings to you?

I wanted to tell you, but I don't wanna change anything between us

I just want to tell you how I felt. Is it so difficult ?

Emiko

让命运决定

 

其实

我还蛮胆小的

喜欢一个人，

但说不出口...

可能害怕说出 

“我喜欢你”

这四个字的过程...

彼此会觉得尴尬

可能会避开对方，逃避对方

我们并不是很熟

但，也不是很陌生

只是以学长，学妹的身份

打招呼

想约你吃饭

但是， 你有可能会拒绝我吧？

毕竟你那么受女生的欢迎

她们崇拜你，暗恋你，关心你，在乎你

可能在这世界上唯一的“怪卡”

是我吧？毕竟我又不是很lady的女生

又没有身材，也不聪明的

但，

我很欣赏你，

我很骄傲有你当我的学长

连身边的朋友说：“你的学长，好帅哦！”

在我眼里，你不是什么帅哥，

一直以外表来形容

那对你也不公平吧？

你是一个开放的人，

成熟，有梦想，有目标的人

我喜欢你这一点。

以外表喜欢一个人

是不公平的。

我想试着了解你，

我想好好认识你

Senior，

你可以让给我你一点的时间吗？

可不可以让我跟你相处的机会呢？

Emiko

College Break Over

Break's over. Man so sad

Need to face notes and assignments again

Haiyoyo....How am I gonna survive? 

Some of my friend that are working

keep asking me "Do you really want to further your studies"

"Why not working for money? "

See how it goes right?

I don't really know how to pass this diploma cert

I just know that, I need to keep going, 

I wanna see senior...

I want to meet him again..

Should I make things complicated? 

Or should I just stay quiet?

Who knows.

I rather be flirty with him to know him better.

Everyone had the right to like someone right?

Just do what I do. =)

Emiko

Good times, missing moments

I had a great time last night,

I've watched Johnny English Reborn and Nasi Lemak 2.0

I love them both, so funny. Seriously, especially Nasi Lemak 2.0

Don't no what's the reason Malaysia Band this movie,

Didn't do anything wrong also.

Anyways, thanks to Joshua, Dora and William 

accompanied me to watch the movie.

I think I've deep feelings for my senior,

more deeper than I expected...when the moment I got jealous

everything seems pretty blue for me.

I thinking about him the whole day,

I know we just met for like around 2 times face to face.

But, I can't help the feeling of liking him.

Is not because of his looks,

I like him because his opened minded, smart, steady and out going person

unlike me being a coward, can't even date him out.

Maybe because his too busy or something,

I don't know just the feeling.

So long I didn't get to feel jealous since my ex and I broke up

so many feelings just came back and forth, 

love is pretty scary for me, I afraid of the feelings

the feelings that make me collapse, bring me down

Senior, I know we don't know each other well,

but, I just had this feelings for you,

I wonder if I tell you, you would accept...

maybe 50/50?

For now I gonna hide this feelings deep within

I need to control the feelings whenever I can.

Be strong Emiko, be strong!!!

Emiko

College Break!

Cheers to holiday break!

Yeah! Finally free from stress, notes, assignments!

My time has come! Yeay

Tomorrow gonna have a date with Dora & Joshua.

Watching Johnny English Reborn

 

maybe Nasi Lemak 2.0 after that.

I've booked Johnny English, 

but Nasi Lemak 2.0 I think I'll buy tomorrow!

Senior having class, he's gonna be busy busy busy!

When can I ask him out? xD

Senior you promise me one day go out, 

when will the day come? ^__^

Oh well, Good times are worth waiting.

I wait for you senior...hahaha

I can't wait for tomorrow~

Stay Tuned!

Emiko

Messed up

My days were blue & grey,

why can't the dark cloud be moved away?

Not to say I'm moody, 

just keep thinking here and there.

During 2 weeks of raya break

I worked for 5 days in one week, straight without fail

really tired. Wonder should I just ditch the job

  and just concentrate on my studies.

Still thinking here and there.

followed by another week of holiday 

I followed my brother and his classmates for group discussion

for our exams. I figured that I can't memorize so many facts in 4 days

I just simply remember keywords without full definitions

Sigh...I'm depressed, 

anyway I don't blame anyone, cause I didn't put full effort 

Will try to concentrate more! =)

7th September, Wednesday

I got a chance to hangout with Wayne, 

LOL really been awhile since we last met, 

during that time we're having spm.

 I really missed him,

He is a good & loyal friend to me, 

he is always there when I wanted to talk to someone

I known him since form 3 from tuition,

We chat from time to time, 

he always cheer me up when I'm upsad or stressed 

for that I'm grateful.

Wayne invited me for lunch,
he is kind to fetch me from my house.
I got to admit his driving skills are good~~

We went to jaya jusco for lunch at mc donalds
I wanted to buy him lunch but he refused to let me
( Wayne let me treat you one time lar! We are friends aren't we? =D )

After lunch
we went to watch Conon the barbarian at Wangsa Walk

Really nice quite movie, Epic I should say
Anyways I love it. After movie we went to rotiboy for tea
Wayne treat me rotiboy and popcorn.
 I really thankful to have him as my friend

He even drove his car nearby the entrance
so I wouldn't caught up under the rain,
I really touched even though I say no need, but he still insisted.
He really is a gentlemen. Make me feel so save like a princess.
LOL, never encounter being so safe before.
It's pretty cool.


Wayne,
thanks for the the ride home & thanks for your time =)


I wonder if Senior would treat me like this
if we have the chance to go out together,
haha wild imagination, 
thanks to faith let me see him before exam!

Really made my day.
Thanks to faith even though is just a simple "Hi" to each other
=)

(I wish that I can see you face to face and I did, I really thankful. IMY =)  ) 

Emiko