✈Off to Ipoh

(USING MY SIS LAPTOP)...


Off to Ipoh the next morning...

Going to visit grandma and grandpa friends and relatives

Might be gone for 4 days...

Saiyonara...

Music can be listen

Music can be clam like the ocean

Music does wonders towards mankind...

FOR ME?

Music makes me think of you....

ONLY OUR MEMORIES...

 THAT CANNOT BE BROKEN

ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED~

-Emiko...sign out

内心·心情

最近的我

身体不好，脸色苍白

从照片你们都看的出

这是我发烧的第三天

因为打针的关系

难得姐跟姐夫有空

带我，外婆和外公吃饭

我们吃比较“淡”的东西

因为我生病的关系

你们知道吗？

我竟然会瘦到48Kg

生病也可以减肥

可是病好了就肥回吧？

其实我心情不好

我不知道怎么解释

连医生问我

有什么东西给我压力

不断的

差点掉眼泪

可是我“忍”

照着说：“没什么，很累罢了”

今天姐夫和姐陪我散散心

我已经很开心了

（暂时的开心）

吃完中饭

就去Shopping

姐夫竟然买保养品给我？？！！

他说我的脸色很苍白

皮肤也没保养

就买这个给我

没想到不爱花钱的姐夫

竟然买Hada Labo Cleanser set给我

姐夫，谢谢你

每次给你麻烦不好意思

当我伤心你会安慰我

像哥哥一样

有你这个家人

我很开心

姐真幸福

真的很幸福有你

还有我要感谢外婆照顾我

婆婆，谢谢你

生病也要你照顾

不好起来也不行 =)

这个世界

就是多谎言，自私，卑鄙的人

我恨那些装可爱，装可怜，发桥的女生

越来越恨

你们只是表面上的美

一卸妆就变回普通的女生

化妆对我来说像魔法一样

可以变美的一瞬间

可是魔法没了，就会变回普通的人

最近的我很少化妆的习惯

以前的我总是说化妆，

就可以改变一切

可是现在想一想自己有多愚蠢

我不爱打扮

也不怎么喜欢化妆了

比较喜欢保养皮肤

因为真正的美

不是靠化妆脸就解决了

是看自己有自信和魅力

我就是丑

我不漂亮

可是我不在乎

因为这就是命运

这是事实

不能改变的

I'm not pretty nor beautiful.

But I beautiful on the inside

Pretty is only temporal,

 But beauty will never fade

You only can see it within

Beauty， can't be measured.

I love you too much

because you're important.

                                                -Emiko sign out.

✁Haircut

After my sis and future brother in law

fetch me home from the hospital

Jie fu say I need a new look

after being in "prison"(hospital) for 4days

 is time for me to have a new look 

I did not had a haircut for about 8 months

cause I trying hard to grow as long as I can.

But since haircut can change a sick face

I listen to them and went to Emo+hairstudio

I had cut my hair
I cut because I want to get rid of my sick face
hairstylish name Ah Chun cut my hair
he is also my brother's hairstylist 

can New Look Emiko survive?

Let's just see~

Bye !

I missed you♥

-LEBear1016

✲Gentle pain

(+...Before I'm sick and away...+)

Sitting on my bed,

using my sister's laptop

as she came to visit me for a few days in grandma house

because I'll be staying with her till I'm well again

Recently (7.10.2010)

My grandma had been taking care of me

because I'm having gastric pain

My grandma said my face is as pale as a 'ghost'

 with dark circles like a panda, thin like a stick? 0.0...

Maybe I'm sick that's why she call me a stick,

 and I admit my dark circles are puffy as ever, cry to much at night T-T

11.10.2010

Amitted to the hospital, gastric pain had gotten worst.

 Grandma and my sister quickly send me to the hospital,

doctor said I got Gastroenteritis ( chinese know as 肠胃炎)

Low blood pressure (didn't know I got till I check by the doctor.==)

and not gain enough of sleep/rest.

 Need to stayed in the hospital for 4 days for futher pain and check up.

At first I wanted to go home,

but grandma said is best if I stay in the hospital

she's afraid the pain would attack me again.

I have stop collage for a while too

my grandma told me to stop and continue next semester.

Every night in the hospital, I felt scared

with no one around beside me

just a phone & my sister laptop acompany me 

Thanks to her and jie fu

makes me feel safe when I scared

So many things happened at once

Friends betrayed, lied, USED me

(how am I suppose to trust someone again?)

My love had left me for someone else

is been painful and it hurts me

even though I miss him

I still can't stop my tears from falling.

I can't seem to let go as well.

For now,

I just want to yeast my pain

relief my sickness

I don't want my grandma keep on worrying

 my sister and jie fu finding free time taking care of me

I can bear the pain of betrayed and left alone

BUT, I can't make them worried.

I won't be online or sign in FB & msn

as my laptop is at home

and my sister seldom came by to visit me

Grandma don't allow me to surf the net

I just can update plurk status with my phone

Peace to everyone~

Special Thanks to QV jie,

 Chery sms's I'm glad.

=]

Sry let you guys worry. =]

✈飞吧 Last Post for a moment~

我

想消失一阵子

因为

我受不了

那种痛

真的快受不了

对不起

我还是没办法坚强起来

我以为我可以

可是

我不能

真的不能

对不起

对不起

对不起

原谅我的自私
我不是不听话

而是脆弱的我
无法控制自己的情绪


我的心；
很累
很痛
很挣扎

让我休息吧
暂时在黑暗里
休息吧

反正
我也习惯
在黑暗的世界
寂寞的世界
悲伤的世界

冷冷的
暗暗的地方
我.....会习惯的

如果有一天我真的消失了
也许"他们"会开心
不是认输
而是我很讨厌自己

我觉得
我只是个多于的人
路人，外人
火星人

一个人
没什么了不起
不是骄傲
是想挑战自己

伤害也好；
逞强也好；
伪装也好；

心理满意就好了
不是吗？

✈✈✈✈✈✈✈✈✈✈✈




安静下吧~

                 祝大家开心                

❤ Random

Just few like update something

not much to write about...

just...

Random Post.

I don't wanna talk a lot

cause, I don't no where to start~

maybe might not want to share...

Angry+Emotional+Sadness

= NO MOOD

Yesterday,

played badminton with my bro

so long didn't play 

a bit rusty

But I manage to play well

smash here and there

to release tension, frustration, anger

pretty much everything.

My bro surprise and got scared the way I play

Sorry bro =)

Because so much things had happened

and I really don't no what to write about.

I want to give a big thanks to QV jie

 for being there for me

when I needed someone to talk to

“姐，谢谢你~”

And also

 Chery and Wendy~

2nd, 

I want to say thank you to my mom

 for buying a brand new computer for me

Surprise actually....

Cause my dad say want to buy for me at first

but, he just say till don't no when only buy~

I keep look up on this camera though

Samsung St550. 12.2 megapixel

or

Samsung St600. 14 megapixel

But just think....

And Lastly.

I want to say, Happy Birthday to.....

Wardy Yap.

Happy Birthday Wardy,

thanks for your advice last time.

Thank you for being a friend to me

 =)

Wish your dreams will come true.

And Happy Birthday to my new lappy.

L645. 

15 September 2010~

Welcome to my life

❤ In Love With You ❤ Dday

Just a gentle whisper told me that you're gone
Leaving only memories, where did we go wrong
I couldn't find the words then, so let me say them now
I'm still in love with you

Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me and I'll be there
I'll be there waiting

I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do,
come to me nowI will never leave you, I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
I'm in love with you
Now we here together, yesterday has passed
Life is just beginning close to you and I
And I promise to you I will always be there
I'll give my all to you

Living a life without you is more than I can bear
Hold me close forever, I'll be there
I'll be there for you

I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do,
this I promise

I will never leave you, I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true,
hold me closer

Our love is forever, holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
Love has found, love has found the way

❤ DDay❤

Tonight I going to set things right~
Hope it turn out right
I waited for so long,
now my heart wants answers
Hope I won't be play out


God, I'm counting on you


Panda Babe (JianLin)
QV (Jie)
Chery


Thanks for support me


Hope the best for the best
I want to say it


I LOVE YOU, LUCAS
HOPE WE CAN GET PASS THROUGH DDAY~❤