就是這样

曾經

我是幸福的

因為有你，有你們朋友的存在

我是開心的

因為你們的存在

我是無憂無慮的

因為你們的存在

我是沒煩惱的

因為你們的存在

曾經

我是沒疑心的

因為你們相信我

我是沒戒心的

因為你們相信我

我是不過問的

因為你們相信我

如今

我不開朗了

我不單純了

我不健談了

我不再笑了

我不瘋狂了

我不假裝了

因為

我不知道誰是對或錯

我不知道誰在撒謊

我不知道誰在隱瞞

我不知道誰在假裝

我不知道誰在演戲

我不知道誰真的用心對待我了...

越值得相信的人,可能就是把你弄得越糟糕的

人心真的很難猜測,捉摸

每個人都有私心

每個人都有自己所謂的想法

包括我和你

以前覺得是個挑戰

現在卻覺得是個經驗

可能這就是訓練自己人生的一個開始吧

我不再饌牛角尖了

豁出去了...堅強的站起來

不放棄自己,人們也不放棄你

我一定能做到這一點

畢竟我也不再小孩了

成長的路很難,但我們也要勇敢面對

這就是人生 !!!

 

 

这是我从朋友那里看到的

还满有道理的

如果他做的到，

我想我应该也能放弃让我不愉快的回忆

 

其实人们都是自私的

有人说：

“人们可以支配自己的命运，

者我们受刻於人那错不在命运而在我们自己”

Goodbye SORROW

I can see the pain living in your eyes

And I know how hard you try

You deserve to have much more

I can feel your heart and I simpathize

And I'll never criticize

All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down

I don't want to lead you on

I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguised

I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love

I'm not sure i'm worthy of

Losing you is painful to me

I don't want to let you down

I don't want to lead you on

I don't want to hold you back

From where you might belong

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguised

I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguised

I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

There's nothing left to try

Though it's gonna hurt us both

There's no other way than to say goodbye

_._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._._.

I gonna let it go

Try letting it go

how painful it is I need to do it..

my sorrows is for me to keep.

I don't want to create problem

I need some strenght, So guys lend me your strenght

Please...I need your strenght...

 Emiko,

Would not share sadness because it would  lose something that is important.

Life and death.

谢谢您对我撒谎

谢谢您之前对我。。。

谢谢您给我一切的悲伤

你所说的话，都是令人觉得。。。
我会永远记住

不是你的错

是我。是我

是我太相信你

别跟我道歉，也不必道歉

我受不起

毕业了

想要把过去全部都埋在心底

我说过的，我会做到

我会不停的追逐开心的角落

朋友们，请大家分你们的快乐给我

我很需要你们！

STRESS

This month happened a lot..

Bad things happened..

I don't no where to start..

I can bearly eat much..

even my Favorite food I "pass" it.

I felt weak..

but I still have strength to do the things I want to do..

I feel I have lost weight..

by eating less, not that I don't want to eat just don't have the appetite..

This morning, when I was helping my mom throwing out the trash

the 3rd floor "Asshole" suddenly open the door..

I can bearly move, inside I was afraid but I didn't show

I don't care and move forward.

And then he use a cup of water and splash it on me.

I was ashamed and I feel like "cockroach"..

after that he scold me crazy. Who is the crazy one who SIN first

Don't know why I deserve this..

What have I done to deserve this..

I had made my first police report

first in my lifetime make a police report, first time been splash water on the face

I been crying for a few times..nobody seems to care anyway..

non of my friends care anyway if I tell them..

better keep it for myself..

♥ The word "FOREVER"

The word "Forever"

In early teenage life,

I always believe the word FOREVER is the way to happiness

I thought wrong. I have experience and analysis a lot.

From my friends and even myself.

Relationships are always up and down.

 They kept saying, the word "forever".

if you said the word, you must mean it!

Not just say then later on just act like nothing happened.

YOU! ( You know who you are)

 don't you ever say "will forever de la."

 IN FRONT OF ME

Hello! Do you know what's the meaning of forever a not?

don't you bullshit me la.

I'm very sensitive when you treat forever is just plain normal word to use.

PISS ME OFF!! 

FOREVER is a commitment for me

FOREVER means ETERNITY

I prefer Always.

It means Continuously.

just like a river flowing forward and never looking back.

CNY 2010

Well As I say Chinese New Year's eve was horrible,

Till 1st day of Chinese New Year

Let's get angpau ^^

1st day of CNY/Valentine's Day look~

sorry the sunlight is too bright xD

Nice?

Went to grandparents house

get angpau..grateful I have them

no matter how much is inside.

I still happy that what I receive~

2nd Day of CNY

Mom invited Aunty Dorin to our house to celebrate my birthday

 along with Justin, Nigel and Russell.

Boys huh? hehe...I invited Monique to accompany me

Lonely if she's not there. At else we have our girl talk^^

My room: Photos of me and monique

LOL. Crazy right?

But I love it.

Anyway presents.

The pencil case from Monique.

The brown box from Aunty Dorin

Nice. I love it. Especially the Brown box.

I was shock when I open it.

At first I thought is a Wine Case or some sort

but...inside containts

THIS..

OMG I love it. I love it

Big Thanks to Aunty, Justin, Nigel and Russell...

Even though not much people nor my friends wish me Happy Birthday

  I can't blame them cause is the 2nd day of CNY.

Anyway I'm happy. Happy to have so much blessing from God.

Anyway Happy Birthday to me,

and all friends who were born on February~

Later on, Dad going to bring me shopping,

he owe me presents!!! wakakaka~

Is a nightmare

Yesterday the crazy neighbour from the 3rd floor,

trying to "harass" us again.

God of all days, Chinese New Year/Valentine's day eve

He use a hammer and knock our front door

Mom, William (my brother) and me,

wondered why there was knocking sounds from the front door.

must be the crazy fella.

I scared till I don't how to describe it

Call my dad from work for help.

when dad arrived we call for security.

Dad was furious and punched him

Crazy fella was not sorry for what he did.

In fact he wanted to fight my dad too.

This case had happened a lot of times

we already made police report for 4 times

no action has been taken.

He throw eggs at our front door,

when our whole family were unavailable

even at my mom's car.

Spoiled our front door using hammer

The reason is he said he heard noices that we make

Especially me. Because my room below is his.

If I accidently drop something,

 he would use a water bottle and throw up to the ceiling

( MEANS A WARNING THAT I MAKE A SOUND)

OMG, I can't take this pressure any longer

what have I done to deserve this.

Even though I'm scared I realize that I can't count on people,

I need to be strong, have the courage to be steady

Who will be there with me?

Answer is God himself.

Only he can protect me from fear.

Nobody would understand

Even though we tell them

they just wouldn't care...(Some people)

The path I chose

I really don't no where to start..

LOL. Well comes with Good and Bad days

Let's leave the bad behind

Good things happened? Not much,

feel kind of moody lately

because of something bothering me

Friendship. Unbreakable. No need to choose.

Just a little argument then don't speak to each other?

Nonsense!! Don't do that! Forgive each other and move on!

Love?

 Wonder when Love Cupid is gonna help me out

CUPID..help me la^^

Advice

You have chose who you want to Love.

Even though the result may be bad or good.

Keeps holding on by being who you are

      

                                       - Jun (EMO stylist said to me)

                   

In movies

"People may say bad things about you,

but you must never say bad things about yourself.

When love goes wrong,

nothing goes right."

-Mike Myres Love Guru Movie

"If you want answers, ask directly.

Don't be afraid to ask." -My sister QV ^^

Past

All the experience that I had.

 Till I decided to give up.

Present 

let's just wait and see.

I leave it to HOPE and FATE.

God is my glory of light. He may lead the way.

I must choose my path.

MY TARGET LIST

Contact Lens

-On the way, Get it on monday~

Cosmetic

-Thanks to daddy ^^

Hair treatment

-must save RM70 for it =)

A Trip for my birthday (With Evon and her BF)

-Both of you, thanks a lot.

Keep FIT

-Eat less already.

Exercise 30 minutes a day

-YES. Need'cha

Don't get sick

-Going to be. Ask the weather.

New Outfit

-Seacrhing...Brought one outfit by online.

 But, still seacrhing for the right one.

When I'm depressed. I may give up.

I don't care about people's opinion

I had enough of this. This is my choice.

I decide to keep going on that what I have plan.

To be happy with no regrets for the rest of my life!