Will it be my turn?



Everyone had a love one;

or a special someone in their hearts..

sometimes I even asked myself, will I be love like the way in books of fairy tales?

or maybe is just thinking too much again?

When you meet a special person, you will feel something that you didn't felt before

of course, I had that feeling once. Only once.

But it's a long time ago.

When he/she hurts you, you will remember the pain..

When he/she lies to you, you will feel insecure and you'll think too much

When he/she done something that makes you happy, you will remember it forever.

As for me,

I got to be honest, my hate for him is growing stronger.

I don't blame him, It's just my own problem

I'm down with love games. I'm done.

After all who can ever understand how I feel.

No one but myself.

Love there is a Lie

Love there is Pain

Love there is hurt one and other

The true meaning of love is learn to love and be loved in return."

I'm tired of games,

I'm tired of thinking love right now.

After all I'm just a silly girl with bunch of imaginations.

Pretty? I wish.

Beautiful? On the inside I think I am

To my Prince Charming,

Who ever you are, I hope we might meet each other.

Get to know each other and help one another.

See you, One day..

A Song for you: I just haven't met you yet

You'll come out of nowhere and into my life 

And I know that we can be so amazing

And, baby, your love is gonna change me

And now I can see every possibility

 

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out

You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out

And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet...

 

Yours Truthly,

Emiko



Almost lose to myself

I almost lose to myself

all the negative thoughts are around me

last week monday till friday

I did not sleep well, I'm having insomia.

I tried went to bed early, but I end up turning right and left

What's the reason?

SIMPLE. Him.

I shouldn't have view his profile

A simple "I love you" these 3 words to his girl,
I barely had a heartache

This words keep on my mind occupied

and made me can't sleep till 3am.

I suffering from not getting enough sleep for 5 days.

I keep blaming myself

why am I so stupid? why I keep thinking of him for what reason?
5 days in row

I've been thinking of all my friends and aunt's advice

I keep lecturing myself everynight.

But think again. I can't hide away from the truth

God open up my eyes tell me to forget him,

FULLY let him go.

One day my aunt called and bring me to a course

It's called "Visiber"

she asked me to overnight at her house too.

"It's like a dream come true!! haha"

I keep on complaining that I wanted to go to my aunt's house for visit

finally!! I got that chance. ^^

Aunt's house is like a spa for relaxation

It's stress-free

It's peaceful-free

It's release my tension too. For me I mean xD

 I enjoyed the breeze there.

 RELAXING

That night itself, I thought I gonna had insomia again.

but it didn't happend at all. I sleep quite early 12am xD

At else 12am not 3am

Next morning I got up early around 6:45am

WOW! I can wake up early! @v@

Miracle! LOL

I attented the course for 4 hours

it's interesting. Because "Visible" help me understand

who I am, what kind of people I am.

I want to change myself! I need confident! I need to move on!

I've got that chance thanks to "Visible" and especially my aunt.

Anyways I had fun, what a fun experience!

And I can sleep soundly now

Hope it won't happened again.

INSOMIA PLEASE DON'T BOTHER ME AGAIN.

As for MY LOVELY AUNT

Dear Aunt, thanks for supporting me through out everything

I am happy that you're my aunt that I can count on.

Please do take care of your health and drink plenty of water.

I ♥ you.

Emiko

Accept the way I am

I used to think that I'm not pretty.

But when I wore an outfit during my "dates"

I really feel pretty and full of confidents.

I look into the mirror

I smile to myself and said

"No matter how people look at me, how people judge me.

I am still me."

To be honest,

I used to be pretty for somone, try to be pretty for him

Keep updating the lastest outfit and hairdo.

But, now I realize I'm not myself.

I  just trying to be someone else to convinced him to fall for me

How stupid I am.

I neglecte the way I am for someone

In the end, I got nothing.

I don't want to be someone that I'm not

I just want to be me, my own character.

hope I can love myself more this year,

not for anyone but myself.

Yesterday I had a appointment with a friend of mine

Sharon.

 She invited me to pavilion to hangout,

and accompany her to Padini to return her uniform.

*Didn't know she work there*

LOLS, anyway I met 1 or 2 classmates of mine as well.

Ain and Faizah.

Although we don't talk much during school times

But I'm happy to meet them again. Especially Faizah

She worked at Elianto.

She look fabulous almost cannot recognize her.

Too bad she can't spend time with us, cause she needs to work

Sharon and I went for lunch after visited faizah.

and then we went to the toilet. Camwhore time* (^V^)

More picture are at my facebook

fill free to view xD

We went to catch a movie as well

the movie to call just go with it

Before the movie starts we went to Wong Kok for tea

Camwhore again =D

My baobei. Cute leh xD

Not only that I saw someone at Wong Kok as well

This guy

Yama.

Haha. So convenient that I can see him in real person

Don't get me wrong, he don't know who I am

but I know him at facebook.

He really look fair.

Envy his skin xD

LOLs after we finish our tea

Sharon and I went off to catch our movie

Is a very funny movie. Love it

You guys should watch.

Till then next post ♥

♥ Emiko

My Worries, my goodbyes!

"When I close my eyes, all I can see is you

why do I think of you till I can't think anymore?"

Back to the topic,

As you all know I quit my job at Little Wok

I'm tired working there, but still got lot of fun of course

I will miss the workers there, especially my friends

I don't know why,

I keep being nice to someone and they don't appreciate

always my weekest point is being nice to people!!! = =

My close friends warned me about it

I just don't listen, now I know why.

I want to act more mature think wide open

Why is it so difficult?

I try to like someone

Honestly, is more crazy as it seems

I'm tired of "tam" people you know?

the more I adore you, the more you getting out of my nerve

Yes, I adore you,

Yes, I missed you

Yes, I want to see you.

But last night you make me rethink about my pass

Repeating the same mistakes all over again

I'm tired. Why can't you make things more easier for me?

Why can't I met someone who is gentle to me?

Why can't I met someone who really cares for me?

Why can't I met someone special?

All the why's!!!

ARhhhhh.. I hate my mood right now.

I want to meet someone who listen's to my problems

I want to meet someone who really cares for me

I want to meet someone who willing to accept the way I am

For now I want to hangout with my friends

I have one month to enjoy my life

after that I need to concentrate my on studies

Lots love♥

 -Emiko



眼泪

我是怎么了？

一直为了某些事

掉眼泪

这几天

生病到很严重

咳嗽到不像样

伤风到冒冷汗

这几天我变成

“爱哭宝”

好像我快被打败的感觉

我到底怎么了

我也不知道

我就是那么脆弱

说过要坚强一点

要学会独立

可是

我还是胆小

我讨厌这样的自己

我也是个自私的人

属于我的东西就是我的！

没有得到我的允许碰我的东西

我十分不爽

我就是这幅德行

从小就这样

我不喜欢跟别人share东西的

感觉孤单的时候

我特别爱着怪自己

想很多自己的缺点

我很想要一个拥抱

我想要感到安全感

我需要有人安慰我

我好寂寞，好寂寞

我好压力，好难过

我不要同情

最讨厌就是同情

对不起

我控制不到自己的情绪

写那么Emo的Post

I wish I could be happier,

even though is just a minute or two.

-Emiko.T

Someone

I miss you.

Is it because of loneliness till I think of you 

or

 I really do miss you

So long I don't have this feeling

why your words make me touched?

When you didn't reply my text or sms.

I was worry, and I think again

Why?

Why I cared about you not replying my sms or text?

I'm afraid as well,
afraid that I can't control myself
I told myself don't be naive
Don't trust people so easily...

Have I fail to do so?

A day without you,

is like a day without sunshine.

 I miss you. A lot ♥

Best or the worst

This days I've been working,

well is kind of stressful life and I'm exhausted.

Feel like want to faint sometimes,

but I still need to work till the end of the month.

Money is hard to earn,

I always spend a lot when it comes to shopping.
Who doesn't spend right ? ^^

So sorry I didn't update my blog for so long
been really busy
Oh ya, need to tell you guys,

I got "my target" few weeks ago

wanna know what it is?

SAMSUNG GALAXY S ^^

My new babe.

Haha, I know this phone is kind of last season

and it doesn't have a flash

But overall is a great phone. (In my opinion)

I sign in with Digi Plan paid for the phone for RM1500

some people say is expensive, some people say is not worth the money

But I don't care about people's opinion

it's my hard earn money and I don't give a damn about it ^__^

15th March 2011, Tuesday

Location: Time Square

It's my offday, and i had a great time with an old friend of mine

Jwalita. She is awesome and fun to hangout with.

We went shopping for clothes, bags, skirts and shoes

almost everthing from head to toe.

I can say I spend a lot.

Almost RM350++

I brought shoes, clothes and a sliming & firming lotion

it's a over budget for me

But, I'm happy to buy something I needed

Satisfied till the max.

once in a life time spend something to make ourselves happy

 is not that bad is kind of fun.

But still need to control my budget usage.

Save more for the future.

I even brought a dress for my mom,

just feel bad for not being a good daughter to her.

So I brought her something in return with my own money.

hope she likes it though.

Another thing,

for those "assholes" that keep getting out of my nerves

listen up.

I don't care that you keep giving my negative thoughts

or even say bad things behind my back

that shows how a bad person you are.

From the start I was freaking piss off about it,

when time goes by I was like "why I'm so angry about it?"

I know myself better that anyone else

why should I listen to your f**king words?

Keep teasing me for not having a bf, 

or not teasing me for not having "big boots"

 and not as pretty nor cute as you are

F.Y.I,

I accept the way I am.

I don't have the body so what?

I got my own sense of style deal with it =)

Number 2,

having or not having a relationship is not your god damn business

what's wrong with being single?

Tell me?

I don't have bf doesn't mean I don't have feelings

"The most beautiful things on earth cannot be seen,

they can only be felt with the Heart" by bubzbeauty

this quote makes me feel that I can be pretty if I wanted to,

but, being pretty doesn't mean you're prefect.

I used to think that,

make up is a solution for me to change my character

 but it doesn't work that way

Pretty is temporal, something that can fade easily

but beauty is eternal.

True beauty is being who you are and what you are.

God made you this way, you must accept it.

just enjoy and live happily.

Smile and be happy

^___^

-Emiko